To much has happened.

I have been so stressed about college and applying for university and that has caused me many panic attacks. Then my mom got very sick. She was in and out of the hospital with a kidney infection. Then my sister in law was in labor with my nephew for 30 hours.

On Friday, the day I thought all the drama would end, my dog fell down and had a grand mal seizure.  Working at an animal hospital I knew how to take care of her and handle the situation. But it was still just so tramatizing to watch my baby seizing on the ground. After her seizure I checked her gums to see how much oxygen she was getting and her gums and tounge where pale. When this happens it means that a dog is not getting enough oxygen.  Luckily after about 15 minutes of calming down she was back to pink.  It turns out that the seizure was most likely caused by stressful events (she had just taken a bath) so now I am keeping her calm and relaxed.

Still stressed. But hopefully things will get better.

I think life may get better once i get my wisdom teeth done and over with.  Im so stressed, but I think it is tying in to a lot of things. With both school and work driving me absolutely crazy, I feel like I have no room to breathe. And when I try to breathe, I just begin to cry because I don’t know what to do. Perhaps its loneliness as well, although I have my best friend by my side, and I am so thankful for her words cannot describe, but I feel so lonely, its that need to have someone love me.  I need to just live life and stop stressing, I need to relax and maybe the right one will come along. But why is this so difficult for me?? Ugh. I just need someone to hold me.